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Name: Chris
Location: Virginia, United States
Birthday: 8/8/1987
Gender: Male
Interests: God, The Bible, My church, acting, video games, the sky, my friends,
Expertise: Everything........really.........I can do everything ...... even fly ...... just ask me and Ill do it!
Occupation: Government
Industry: Government
Message: message me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  Feb29Titan
Member Since:
1/27/2004
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| So its been what three years? It will probably be more before I update again but I saw that hey some people I don't know read this, which I think is totally awesome! Hi people! If you still read this then you are awesome and I like you! Sorry I can't finish that song, let me tell you what happened in between now and then. I got over that girl, because I met a new one! She was amazing and I loved her with all my heart. I even was planning on proposing. Then she cheated on me, and today she told me that she is in a relationship with that same guy. It won't last because she's moving to Oklahoma in about 2 weeks, which leads me to believe she is just using him for physical things.
Although she also told me that she still loves me, and that she wants me to be her friend and that she doesn't want to live her life without me in it to some extent. I told her I would like to be her friend, but I will not do it until he is officially out of her life forever. Now I realize she is going to date other people, and I am going to date other people, so why should I care? I think it's because I am so hurt right now, and the injustice of her being with him after she cheated, and she thinks she can have us both? I hold no animosity towards him, honestly I don't! It's her that I'm infuriated with. And I just think if she wants me she will have to get rid of him. So whether any of you agree with me or not that's what I'm doing :)
So it's time for me to move on, but I'm going to spend the next few days moping in my room. By the way that picture of me looks nothing like me now a days. My hair is short, and I'm really handsome now, I promise!
Okay, bye for a while Xanga, it's really cool to know some of you out there care.
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| Hey there xanga world, so I haven't updated this since 2005... spank... if you randomly top by my page and read my stuff, unlikely, then hey how ya doin? And you should know I've grown up a lot since then. My hairs shorter, I'm much more mature, though I still laugh at things like the word poop, but I like me so rawk and roll.
Anyway I'm finally updating because I'm fairly positive no one reads this anymore so I thought it would be a good place to type out a song I'm writing. Its very emotional though hopefully not emo, anyway the point is it's about all the crap thats been happening to me within the last 10 months and I felt like a good way to get it out is write it down. Well my handwriting sucks so I'm typing it here! Can't do word cause tech stuff like its gonna crash if I use it too much more. Iuno.
So theres the update for anyone who happens to read this, if you do randomly read this leave me a comment or two and tell me what you think of my song, I'll prolly just edit it instead of doing more blogs as it comes together in my head.
I can't take this heart break anymore
its the same thing every day
for 10 months now I've suffered
I've cried out in pain every night
I love you with all of my heart
why am I not good enough to keep your love?
My hearts in a vice and you're twisting, twisting
and you don't even know.
You are so beautiful and it tears me up inside.
More to come
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| WARNING BLOG MAY CONTAIN SWEARING TO AN UNKNOWN DEGREE WE WILL FIND OUT THE DEGREE ONCE IT IS WRITEN!
I DO NOT BELIEVE THIS!!! fgvr kjgnvkjrn gbvker threthreaojgorhhyg aBOY
HOW COULD YOU BETRAY ME LIKE THIS??? I LOVED YOU! YOU WERE SUPPOSED TO
BE MY BROTHER!!! YOU SWORE TO ME YOU WOULD STOP! I SUPPOSE THAT WAS
JUST ANOTHER LIE! ALL YOU SAY IS LIES! I CAN'T BELIEVE I SPENT SO MUCH
TIME WITH YOU! I CAN'T BELIEVE I EVER THOUGHT YOU WOULD CHANGE! YOU
WERE SUPPOSED TO BE MY BROTHER!!! MY FUCKING BROTHER! I TRUSTED YOU! I
CAN NEVER TRUST YOU AGAIN! I was wrong to EVER call you my brother.
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| OH MAN! So let me start this by saying that Chad is indeed the most
coolest man in the WORLD! Next to Jesus. SO yesturday I went to his
church which was AWSOME! We talked about the importance of reading The
Word and the pastor there, John I think his name is, and he was like
banging on the table going YES at points and it was soooooo COOL! And
today I took him to my church and that was AWSOME! We talked about
addictions and that was cool BUT THE COOLEST PART was afterward we went
to the FLC and met Lauren and we had this HARDCORE prayer like you
don't even KNOW! She was freaking speaking in tongues! Like Im not even
kidding! And Chad and I were going OFF on praising God and being like
THANK YOU! And it was INSANE! And God's pressence was like BOOM! And
when Lauren speaks in tongues she sounds Irish but it was AWSOME! And
afterward I took Chad to his car and we had this AWSOME conversation
and we are like soooo Brothas from anotha motha as I like to say! But
Chad was like no man we're brothas in CHRIST! And I'm like YES! GOD IS
AMAZING!!! So after I dropped him off I drove home and put on the best
praise song I had and SCREAMED it alllll the way home like HALLELUJAH!
And my voice hurts like the dickens BUT GOD IS STRONGER THAN PAIN! God
is the key to everything man if your life sucks let me tell you you
either don't have God or you aren't relying on him I guarentee that if
you turn to Jesus your life will zoom to the best place it has ever
been! And as the guys said tonight if you are addicted to something you
WILL NOT STOP if you do not rely on God you CAN NOT do ANYTHING on your
own! Trust me I am the biggest example of that EVER! God is amazing I
don't know how I ever lived without him! ... wait I DIDN'T! Cause you
never truly live until you have GOD CAUSE THATS WHAT ETERNAL LIFE IS!
Its KNOWING God! The one who created you and LOVES you! God didn't just
put you here he put you here and DIED for you here and now LIVES with
you here if you accept him! If you need proof look at me or any of my
Christian friends! And ask them what God has done for them! Ask any
other religion what their "God" has done for them and I guarentee it
won't be nearly as amazing! God is the coolest thing ever and I just
can't shut up about him and you know what I won't shut up about him
cause God has called me to tell EVERYONE about his glory and his power
and his LOVE and dang it thats what Im going to do! Cause when it comes
down to it you have NO CHOICE! When you realise Gods Strength and you
SEE him and see the world through his eyes! You have no choice but to
get on your face and cry in shame because you (like myself) are a
SINNER! And you can't escape it! Its IMPOSSIBLE Well I say impossible
but I mean impossible for any person to do on his/her own! You NEED the
blood of Jesus and ONLY the Blood of Jesus Christ can save you!
Ok I've gone on my RAMPAGE for long enough. GOD IS AWSOME! I love you
guys sooooooo much God Bless you all and I will pray for you like soooo
hardcore you can't believe!
~Your Brother In Christ!
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| SO I finally get a life outside of school and video games and what do
my parents do? What the average teen age parent does. Ruin it! They say
they like my friends then why won't they let me spend time with them? I
tell you I can't wait until I'm 18 Im just gonna be like hey yeah Im
going to this thing see you at midnight or something and Im gonna go
and then come back perfectly fine and not be tired or anything (because
for some reason I'm weird like that)! So I'm angry at them right now.
Yesturday I wrote a song. Ima post what I have and keep in mind I was
very "emotional" when I wrote it. Also that its supposed to be super
hardcare!
Why am I left alone here?
Stuck with nothing but my own devices
And I will listen for your voice
the one I long to hear
but the more I listen the more I realise
Its not there!
And as I lay here staring at the sky
I remember how it feels to fall.
What is this pain I'm feeling?
How can it cut so deep?
I know not how to end this
Please just tell me what to do!
You are not the one I need
You are not the one I want
Everytime I say I love you
you just cut me deeper!
I'm bleeding my vains dry
just holding on to you!
Theres prolly gonna be another verse in there then its gonna go to a
wailing guitar solo then its gonna build and build then you're gonna
hear this:
Im cutting you loose
I'm getting rid of this lie
I'm cutting off this cancer thats been eating me inside!
hear that a few times and each time it will build till it ends in this
awsome scream and then more heavy guitar and then some lyrics which I
have yet to write! I showed a few people and they said it was awsome so
what are your thoughts loyal Xangans? I think its pretty good myself! I
don't normally write good music. Well thats what I get for getting
"emotional" Remember kids good things happen when people get angry!
**WAHAHAHAHAHAH** no some kids gonna go out and punch his dad in the
groin or something then I'm gonna get sued. Oh well. Everyones at the
farewell party for pastor ...... however you spell his last name, and
they're all having fun and I'm stuck here with nothing but video games
and TV in the dark. And people say I have a good life? Yes actually I
do have a good life but whats the use of a good life if you can't share
it!
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